Showing posts with label creativity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label creativity. Show all posts

Saturday, 14 June 2014

Book Review: The Fault In Our Stars

[Warning - may contain spoilers. I'll try to keep them to a minimum.]


The Fault in Our Stars
John Green, 2012. Published by Dutton Books, available pretty much anywhere. 


It is now only a few days before the long-awaited film of The Fault in Our Stars, by John Green, is released in cinemas in the UK. This morning my housemate marched down the stairs, placed the book firmly next to me, and demanded that I read it before we see the film. 

I wasn't sure if I'd like the Fault in Our Stars, so I started reading nervously. More than nervously: guardedly. I almost wanted to dislike it because it's so popular, and I'm not a fan of most of the big, easy-read popular books out there - the Twilight Sagas and endless dystopian novel series being churned out at the moment. However, I've been following the Vlogbrothers on youtube for some years now, and John and Hank Green both stand out to me as intelligent, kind men, and ideal role models for young people. They know what they're talking about, and who they're talking to, and they encourage and inspire their fanbase to act responsibly and think independently. Even without the media hype and the film, John Green's name on the cover is pretty much a guarantee of thoughtful, intelligent writing. 

The book opens with a dedication to Esther Earl, a nerdfighter (the name given to the Vlogbrothers' fan base) who died of cancer some years ago. John met her before she died, and nerdfighters celebrate #EstherDay in her honour - a day to promote love, positivity, and tolerance. As such, John's foreword, reminding readers that the story is entirely fictional and that he does not wish readers to attempt to place facts into the story, is particularly needed. It would be easy to search for Esther and John in the story, especially in the troubling relationship between Hazel and novelist Peter Van Houten, but this would undermine the relevance and autonomy of the story, and risk fictionalising Esther. TFiOS is not a novel that pretends to be real; the bands and books within the story are invented, and the story stays within its confines. It exists in a small world; it doesn't pretend to be anything more than a story for teenagers, working around the conventions of its genre. 

Yet this acceptance is not a limitation, but rather the brilliance of the novel. Augustus Waters struggles throughout the novel with his own insignificance, whilst Hazel accepts that living her own life, and doing ordinary things, is okay. 'Okay' is an important word in TFiOS: it is the word that stands for acceptance of what life deals us, and more than that, a firm belief in beauty in small things, everyday occurrences. Being 'just a good book' or 'just a normal kid' is okay. 

But okay doesn't mean simplistic, or patronising. The story itself is refreshingly simple: the plot runs in chronological order, with one strong, reliable narrator, and a small cast of detailed characters, giving it readability and easy emotional access. The 'stars' of the book are arguably the secondary characters - Isaac, Peter Van Houten, Lidewij, and Caroline Mathers (oh, wait till you find out about her. That bit broke me.) I thought it took a while for Augustus to become a fully fleshed out character, and he often irritated me - pretentious beyond even the average lit student, and far more open about his love for Hazel than any seventeen year old I've ever encountered. But Green's writing, again, is clever and critical: the character of Augustus is a comment on perception and portrayal of the heroic, male love interest, working through the clichés to the painfully real, vulnerable character who appears in the last third of the book. It's worth sticking with his pretentious 'I am not in the business of denying myself simple pleasures' nonsense to hear what he has to say in the final pages. Green works with the conventions of character writing in young adult fiction, using them to establish boundaries and relationships, and then breaking them to great emotional and structural effect. 

The real strength of the book is not just in the plot, or characterisation, but in the questions raised between the conscious questions asked by the characters, and the questions raised in the structure and authorial decisions shaping the story. Green's pacing is gentle, but never sluggish, and he allows enough 'everyday life' to creep in to make the story realistic, but not overweighted with detail. The main weight of the plot is philosophical, rather than physical; instead of hefty medical terminology, the plot centres on poetry and existential questions. Although occasionally wearying, Green's resistance of sentimentality makes this tactic bearable, and sometimes thought-provoking. 

The most obvious issue raised is the question of how to portray the life of a child with cancer, whilst resisting the mawkishness of channel 4 documentaries or sentimental eulogizing; the problems of how they want to be remembered, and of how to prioritise and reflect on their lives is a crucial question for the main characters. Green treads through this question lightly, resisting the temptation to tell the reader how to feel or sentimentalize situations. Where a character or event could become cliché, he is honest: Augustus, for instance, is as good-looking as any love-interest ought to be, but he himself knows this, and it doesn't dominate his character or become a symbol of his innate good nature, a fault of the Twilight genre. Green also resists the temptation to indulge in pity for Hazel and the other cancer sufferers; he confronts the issue on every page, but he doesn't let it rule the story even though it rules Hazel and Augustus' lives. Personally, I think this act of literary defiance is a far better tribute to cancer sufferers than any amount of sentimentality over the awfulness of their situation.

In some stories about kids with cancer, the question of the novel is how they survive, how they cope, how their families react (and so on), and the answer is almost formulaic; the tragedy, the pain, the resolution. As satisfying as this might be to a spoon-fed readership, Green has more respect for his readers, and for kids like Esther and the reality of their lives, to write another book of this ilk. In TFiOS, cancer is not the answer but the question, and the answers aren't always predictable. Rather than going for big, overdramatic twists, the structure of TFiOS is gentle curves, with believable and powerful revelations lowered slowly into the story. In other words, it punches below the belt; it isn't a book that can be closed halfway through if the reader doesn't like a plot change. Aside from a few clangers such as 'I never took another photo of Augustus Waters', there is little in the way of foreshadowing; instead, certain catch phrases and repeated events hold the story together. I won't spoil the ending, but I will say that to my mind, it's a technical masterpiece. Content-wise, it brings together several themes and ideas from the story, and is deservedly emotional, but not overdone, but best of all, it's not a satisfying ending. In satisfying stories about kids with cancer, everyone goes into remission, the couples get each other, and they all go off to college and have kids who grow up to be ballet dancers or marine biologists or firemen, and because they are brave and good, cancer never pops its ugly head up again. Throughout TFiOS, the characters are preoccupied with the ending of a particular book, and its lack of resolution (which Green consciously has Hazel describe as 'literary'). Is it literary to lack an ending, or is that just real life? Should stories be complete? In the end, TFiOS is neither of these things. The ending doesn't fully satisfy our need to complete all the stories, but what we are given is perfect in its own, self-contained way. In the end, Hazel acknowledges that 'forever' can exist within 'their numbered days', and although that is really not okay, it can be okay - a decision mirrored in the ending, with its mixed sadness and acceptance, the lack of What Happened Later details. It doesn't satisfy, but it's right - respectful to the real struggles of cancer sufferers, respectful to the readers, and to the novel's question of what makes a good ending. Perhaps Green's refusal to fully end the story is an answer in itself: the best endings are not really ends at all. 

Sunday, 9 February 2014

Dear Joanna: Writing to my 13 year-old self

Dear Joanna,

Hello, Joanna! This is Joanna, writing back. It's Sunday the 9th of January, 2014, which makes me 20 years old. You are 13, and in your second year of secondary school.

Let's start with what I remember about you. One of your biggest fears was that I would forget what it was like to be 13, and I want to reassure you that I haven't forgotten you - not one bit. After all, you spend a lot of time thinking about what it will be like to be me, and dreaming about all the things you'll do in the future. To be honest, you spend far too much time living in the future. One of the things I've learnt in the last few years is to try and stay focused on the present, and let the future take care of itself.

You're 13, a ball of hormones, opinions, and angst - like most thirteen year olds! Trust me, it gets better. You're one of the tallest kids in your class, and considered quite bright, with the weird result that you're both self-conscious and a total show-off. Sorry, but it has to be said: you do show-off, and whilst it impresses the teachers, it isn't really impressing any of your classmates at the moment... You're learning the flute, although you hate practicing. Your favourite subjects are Religious Education, Drama, English, and History, although you enjoy almost everything, except sport. You want to be a missionary, or a writer, or an explorer. You love the Redwall series by Brian Jacques, the Narnia stories, and audio books. Your favourite colour is purple and your favourite animal is the squirrel. You have blond highlights that make you look like a zebra and a HUGE crush on Orlando Bloom. A really big crush. It's a bit scary how much you know about him. Unfortunately, Orlando does not stay that good looking - you really won't fancy him when you see him in the Hobbit (yes, they make a film of that!). 

I remember being you. I remember looking through the property pages in the newspaper and choosing my dream house. I remember reading The Curious Incident of The Dog In The Night Time under the table in the dining room, because I wasn't old enough to read it yet (Mum and Dad knew you were doing it, but let you get away with it!). I remember secretly weighing myself in the bathroom and furiously scribbling about how much I hated myself in my diary. I remember how much I worried about friendships and boyfriends and gossip. I remember the excitement of getting an allowance for the first time, and saving up to buy myself a digital camera. (You keep that camera for years, until it breaks when you put it in your handbag without the case, age 19. Sorry.) What I'm trying to say is that being you mattered. At times it was tough, but you have a lot to look forward to. 

Over the next few weeks I'm going to write responses to all the worried notes you left in your diary to your future self, hoping desperately that I'd be okay, and trying to imagine that I could respond. One of your worries was that I'd loose the power to imagine things, so these letters will be proof that I didn't, even though I can't make imaginary worlds the way you could. I'm still a daydreamer, and I'm imagining you opening these letters, seven years ago.

Until next time, keep dreaming.
Love,
Almost-Grown-Up Joanna x 

Saturday, 1 December 2012

The Poet's Progress

I'm sorry it's been so long since I last updated this blog! University is keeping me busy. Today I have my second concert of the week; next week I'm reading at an open Mic night (which isn't terrifying at all...); on Tuesday I helped with a sixthform assembly... this is just a small sample of the general madness and awesomeness of University. Not to mention the work of course... Normally I blog to procrastinate, so perhaps my absence is a good sign. However, today's blog is different. For my first semester Creative Writing module, I am required to hand in 72-80 lines of poetry/ a 1500 word short story accompanied by a 500 word critical commentary on the development of my writing. The deadline is in about two weeks time, and I'm trying to marshal my thoughts. What have I learned, aside from how not to use a microwave? I am planning a blog on all the accidental things I've learnt at university, most of which relate to cooking or cycling, but you'll have to wait for that thrilling document until the Christmas holidays! :) 

So this post is about how I edit a poem, and the changes I've been making to that process. You will get to see various samples of my unfinished poetry. Although most of the time I'm quite loud, I'm actually cripplingly shy when it comes to showing anyone my creative work; sending off portfolios to get into University was a big step for me. So please be kind...

When I first started writing, I didn't edit my work at all, or revisit it. I just sat in my room with my computer, creating notepad file after notepad file of 'poems'. I still use notepad for this; not only is it simple and uses very little memory space on my computer, it reminds me not to get too sanctimonious about anything I've written. If a poem half-works, the idea of going back and dissecting it to try and get it perfect can seem scary, or even illogical. As a consequence I have literally hundreds of files of poems that are half-good (by my standards!). There's something about each one that I like, or liked at the time, so I can't bring myself to delete them, but I don't believe in them enough to edit them. The thing is, there is no point churning out realms of half-good material that will never be accepted for anything, and you will eventually regret. It's better to edit whilst the original idea is still fresh in your mind. 

So I've begun to develop my own writing and editing process! I still have a long way to go, but by putting more time and attention into my writing, I'm creating poems that I don't want to delete instantly, and hopefully poems I can use for my end of semester assignment. 

So from one rough draft:
multiply yx2,
the untested solution to all relationships,
predictable as a coin rising

and falling, as the number
governing how many times

you can toss two people together
and they still fall apart.

 To the edited version: 
Still it sits on my desk,

untested, as If:
all relationships were predictable

as a coin rising
and falling, as the number

governing how many times
you can toss two people together

and they still fall apart.
The differences are small, but a small change can make a big difference. In this poem, I was thinking about probability, based on the toss of a coin, so it made sense to make each stanza two lines long, to represent the heads/tails yes/no dichotomy. In my first draft, most of the stanzas are three lines, which was inconsistent and served no purpose in the poem. I also reorganised the sentence to use the 'If:' proposition, which is used in computer language to represent a choice and was a motif I used at the start of the poem. 

So did editing it make it any good? I'm not sure, to be honest. Better is not synonymous with good. I did actually send this poem off to a poetry e-zine, but I was rejected - something I'm told I will have to get used to...! :D At first I was disappointed*, but I know now that one rejection doesn't mean the work isn't any good. There are ideas and lines I like in this poem which I will probably go back to, and maybe write something else from.

Tip No.1: If you have a bad poem, and you're not sure where to go with it, choose the best line and use it as a starter/inspiration for an entirely new poem. Or use it to re-write your first attempt. 

So this is how I write:

1) Rough work.
I carry around a little black book with me at all times, in which I scribble poetry, oddments of prose, good words, random phrases, and notes to myself. It's scruffy, full of bits of paper, and I love it to pieces. Also, I try to carry a really good pen with me. Some poems are re-worked several times in the book, and there are plenty of abandoned stubs. I just found the phrase 'How does she feel? / Like Cigarettes & sunshine' scribbled in one corner. This is possibly one of my most private, precious possessions and I never show anyone its contents, ever. 

2) Re-editing on paper.
This is a new phase for me. I copy the poem out, making changes as I go. I read it aloud and try out variants on different lines.

3) Thinking break
I'm most inspired when I'm writing in the heat of the moment, scribbling as fast I can, but what I lack when I'm writing like this is perspective. So usually I leave the poem there for a while, if I can bear it. A few hours, or a few weeks later, I'll pick it up again and try to cast a more critical eye over my work. This is important as things that seemed like great ideas then can be deceptive, and you're more likely to pick up out-of-place phrases or awkward ideas on a second reading.

4) Typing up
This used to be my first, or even second step! I write up all my work onto notepad files, which I then back up on my memory stick. As I write, I re-edit again, mostly for style rather than content. Sometimes I rephrase things and substitute adjectives, with the help of the ever wonderful thesaurus.com, but as I do most of my work on paper now I edit less on the computer than before. At this stage, I'm trying to look at how my poem looks overall, including aesthetically, whereas at earlier stages I work as if through a magnifying glass, focusing on each word individually and slowly joining the dots between them and their neighbours.**

Tip No. 2: Back up everything. Twice. Losing your work is the most disheartening thing ever. 

5) Re-naming and other fussy activities
At this point, whatever I've done is as finished as it will ever be. I have started revisiting old poems, though. There's this one poem I wrote over the summer which is terrible, but I love the expressions I used, so I'm breaking it down into several mini-poems, each working with one of the ideas I conflated in the original. This involves a lot of re-writing and editing, but hopefully it will give new life to a dead poem. I also rename things, check my spelling & grammar (punctuation doesn't matter - if it's wrong, it's artistically wrong). I also keep a record of everything I write, no matter how awful, along with notes and dates. This isn't necessary, but it does help me keep a track of what I've done, and where I think I'm going. 

So now I'm going to be brave, and show you something I started yesterday, as an example of how I edit/create: 

Stage one - rough scribblings:
New Directions                     <-- something one direction need to take
November sinks like
November is sinking.
Around Ely it stops, and frost
frond-like wraps the carriage
up, and we are the lost.

The sky is gone soon the sky
At Thetford it melts go the last call
for tickets, please
At Thetford I watch                                            <-- line length
it wallow in the faces
of the grey people boarders
who board boarders, rigid in their reserved places

who talk who are going west, away
the only compass-point
here. Before Peterborough the day        (misspelled Peterbrough)
is over, and to the east

the last autumn’s fingertips disappear. 
I've actually transcribed that from my book, scribblings out included... :D

Stage two: editing
As the East, as the crow flies
November is sinking.
Around Ely it stops, and frost
frond-like wraps the carriage
up, and we are lost.

At Thetford the Thetford stop I watch
it wallow try to warm the faces
of the grey boarders sitting
rigid in their reserved places

With the From east to west,
West For them, going west is going away,
As fast as we can run away
Wst, November clings on behind
West, to Peterbrough’s lights
and the night ahead

Like the sun we only go                                 unimpeded
from east to west. Soon the day
closes on Peterborough, and like
November, the fens push us away

into December. This is the east                  restless December
where good weather goes to die.
and when you can still see
and the voices telling you home
is near, and the
They told you it wasn’t far from home.
They didn’t mean to lie.  
You can see the point where I tried out lots of different lines, adding one on top of another until I was forced to start a new paragraph! Without the crossings out, it looks like this: 
East, as the crow flies

November is sinking.
Around Ely it stops, and frost
frond-like wraps the carriage
up, and we are lost.

At the Thetford stop I watch
it try to warm the faces
of the grey boarders sitting
rigid in their reserved places.

Like the sun we only go
from east to west. Soon the day
closes on Peterborough, and like
November, the fens push us away

into December. This is the east 
where good weather goes to die.
They told you it wasn't far from home.
They didn't mean to lie.  
 At this stage, it still needs another edit, and I haven't decided what I think of it yet. For one thing, I need to look at the train lines again and work out whether Ely or Thetford comes first on the Norwich-Peterborough journey. There are awkward moments; for instance, the end of stanza three feels too long. I'd like to put a line break in after 'fens', but this would disrupt the day/away rhyme, which took me a long time to settle on. I am pleased with the sudden change of tone at the end of the poem, but I'm not sure how clear the story of the poem is. Can you see that I'm on a train, travelling home, in the late autumn? Can you imagine the fens as I saw them that morning? It's too early to tell yet. But there, it is, and for now, I'm pleased with it. 

Everyone has their own editing process. I'm still working on mine, and I'd love to hear about what works for you. Leave me a comment/or send me a tweet @corybantically - I'd love to hear from you! As always, thank you for your patience in reading this far.
God Bless,
J.R. x 



*really grumpy, and may have had a secret weep later
**I'm sorry for that sentence. I really am.